Currently Reading Shadow & Claw : The First Half of 'The Book of the New Sun' (New Sun) By Gene Wolfe see related

Was my birthday yesterday. Yay for birthdays. Especially one's seventeenth one. The age of seventeen is just the bastard child of ages sixteen and eighteen that no one really gives two squirts of piss about. Yay, R movies, as if everyone who turns seventeen wasn't sneaking into them before? -rolls eyes- But regardless.

Arrr. Apparently I'm in a phase in which one becomes disillusioned and realizes the people one has chosen to associate aren't everything they seem to be. Mmm. If there's one thing that shuts up any whining I'm doing real quick, it's telling me that what I'm going through is normal. It's like 'open mouth, insert foot, yummy!'. So yeah. I have thoroughly stopped bitching about all of that. I got done with APs today. My gods, the comparative government test killed me. The multiple choice was so freaking hard, and of course, on the written part, one of the questions just had to be about Nigeria, my least favorite country of the six we've studied. I hated Nigeria, mostly because I failed the test because I didn't read the briefing paper. And now my grade's borderline, and I expect it to be even more borderline. Oh the joys. I should be doing math homework right now, but I just don't feel like it. I feel like escaping back to the wonderful wonderful book I'm reading right now, the series, I've decided (The Book of the New Sun series) is my most favorite one. Ever. Ever. I love it. It has eclipsed Tolkien's glory, and it is a welcome break from reading philosophy at the moment. I love Ralph Waldo Emerson and the Buddha to death, but I sorely needed a break. Those dealt too much with reality, reality being that which I seek so desperately to escape. Seeing as my D&D group (or what remains of it) won't be starting up till summer. Loverly.

But regardless, I remain optimistic. I write that here just to remind myself of it. I need to become more optimistic, and I kind of am, but the optimism is edged with cynicism (or is the cynicism edge with optimism?). No matter, I'm jaded once more, but only partially. The way I should be. But yes. -waves-

I love you all? (As you can see, I'm trying very hard to love the world.)